Guest post by Yogasteya member Brenda Reid
I’ve been practicing yoga for about 10 years now. It has gotten me through career shifts, painful arthritis days, and massive mounting stress. Frankly, I can’t fathom where I’d be without yoga, and so I tend to talk about it a lot.
So when I’m asked, “Are you an instructor?” and I find myself responding with a bit of an abrupt and firm, “NO,” it causes me to ask myself – why I haven’t done it after all this time? I mean, becoming a yoga instructor does seem like the next logical step, so why haven’t I taken it?
My internal self-talk-track goes something like this:
- That’s a huge commitment and I don’t have time.
- ‘Everyone’ is doing it and I’m not a joiner.
- No one will take someone who isn’t thin and bendy seriously as an instructor (this one originated before I found Dianne, Amber, Britt and all you other great ladies!)
- You can’t remember what you had for breakfast, yet you think you can memorize all the pose names in Sanskrit?
- Hey stiff one – you know you can’t do all the poses, especially the advanced ones.
After I dig a layer deeper, my talk-track goes something like this:
- You’ll be exposed at an entirely new level – people will expect more of you.
- You might fail.
- Your yoga is personal – you cry on the mat, instructors don’t cry on their mats.
Don’t get me wrong – I admire all the lovely people who have taken on the challenge of teaching yoga to others. Without great instructors, I never would have stuck with yoga myself. I’m grateful for those I’ve met along the way, and I remain committed to helping others find yoga as well. I encourage others to dig deeper, and I offer them modifications that I have learned and feel are helpful. I even drag several individuals to class with me…which leads me back to thinking maybe I should consider the path to becoming a certified instructor.
All I know is – I’m not ready to take the leap today. Laundry list be damned, it’s still my list. For now, I’ll continue my personal, private practice that has become so dear to me. As for the next time someone asks if I’m a yoga instructor – I’ll respond with a softer, “no,” and perhaps even add….”not yet.”
Brenda is a software executive with insatiable wanderlust, a passion for family, and the outdoors. Finding yoga in 2003 brought a new dimension to self-exploration and learning to work through physical challenges and she enjoys practicing often both at home and in a local studio. She spends her non-travel time volunteering as a mentor to teenage moms, enjoying her 2 adult children, grandkids, and getting lost with her husband of 25 years.